jethrothoughts:

chilling on the grasses on sucha beautiful day :)

goooodmoorning! your SO cute! :D whats your secret?

You tend to tell people that you’re fine, but deep inside, you’re really not. And you try to convince yourself and others that you really are, when the truth is, something is slowly eating you up alive. But you continue to put on a façade that nothing’s wrong. All you want is someone that you can reach out to. Because you alone, can only go so far.

Before I went out with him, I really Loved him. I missed him, but not enough to lose my inner peace. I was having fun and enjoying life with him. The problem came when I began to go out with him. I tasted the sweet honey of a boy’s lip and fell in despair whenever he wasn’t with me. He became an addiction. I couldn’t have fun anymore when I was alone, and whenever he was with me, I wanted to stay with him and don’t let him go. He started feeling uncomfortable with the situation and broke up with me. It was really painful - I had lost my Love. 

You see, people transform Love into an addiction (and sometimes it’s addiction since the beginning) and this creates suffering. If, for example, a guy want to stay with a girl that is addicted to him, he can control her. She becomes his pet. She does everything he wants because if she doesn’t, the guy won’t give her “love” and she suffers. She is addicted to him. He abuses her. Who is to blame? Anyone. She wants that, he wants that and that’s it. Not very pleasant, but many people are like this. That’s NOT Love. Love is self-fulfilling. You don’t NEED other person neither other person NEEDS you. You just want to have fun. If there is a need/attachment, you don’t Love each other, you just want to be with the other to satisfy YOUR “NEED”, what is very selfish…

Everyone, especially teenagers need to stop trying so hard to be different, to be cool, to be trendy. Just be honest with yourself. Half the time you’re following others just to fit in. The other half you’re trying to set trends that don’t even represent who you really are. Yeah, it’s an amazing feeling getting attention and being popular. But it’s all that much better when you gain all of the respect by just being yourself. It’s like that gratifying feeling you get when you beat a game without the cheat codes. You accomplished something purely on your own, and that is one of the best feelings you may never get to experience in your life. Don’t lie to yourself.

I hate that empty feeling I get when I realize, for a second, that person is slowly fading away from me. What once a strong connection is now merely just a thing of the past . I hate it .

The most that I could ask for and want from someone, is for them just to be real. That’s all. Just be real with me. And if things work out, beautiful.

I’ve come to realize that I’m constantly struggling to find self satisfaction. I’m persistently trying to find ways to help improve the person I am, but I feel like I’m always failing to do so. I can’t find anything that thoroughly fulfills my needs and my requirements and as a result, I stress out and get frustrated. I don’t know if I’ll gain a moment of complete contentment.